I thought I would write about something that has been on my mind here and there the past several months or so....something that I ponder regularly.
I've just been quite amazed at how people come and go into our lives once or several times in our lifetimes. Its something that I've been more aware of and have come to accept as a part of our life's journeys. I used to think that when someone quit talking to me or just kind of faded into nowhere, that it was something I did. It would haunt for a long time and I would feel like I needed to make this gigantic step of getting back in touch with them. Sometimes that is required, but if the effort is really forced then it obviously wasn't meant to be. It is always kind of hard to see someone disappear out of your life, but maybe that is why it makes it all the more amazing when they reappear. Maybe the friendship was meant to go another direction and when the timing was right, the friendship would resume (sometimes as though no time has passed). I believe that our relationships with people throughout our lives are meant for us to learn and grow and transform. Some people come into our lives at a certain point just to provide a gift we needed then, and for us to provide them with a gift as well...and then, poof...they are gone. Some people have really left a lasting impression and have touched my heart and soul. Obviously, not all gifts are ones that I've treasured at the time and wonder, "what the hell?"..."why was this person in my life?". Well, to teach you some sort of lesson, dummy. I usually don't see it at the time (but am becoming more aware of it), but later down the road it all makes sense. Its actually quite amusing if you think about it. It sometimes even makes me laugh inside. Sometimes I've found myself just totally attracting the same types of people in my life all at the same time. This is when it amuses me most. Well, apparently I'm supposed to learn something in this journey of mine right now!
I still beat myself up sometimes when I'm unable to find the time to call someone back or just really don't feel like talking at that particular time. I kind of think this is ok though. If it seems more effort than it should, maybe it wasn't meant to be at that moment. Eventually, we make the time (that is sometimes needed) and reconnect up for the time being...and then go our own ways for a few days or months...and the reconnect, etc, etc. Other times, there are friends that you can share a lot with during a particular time and it is effortless. Quite bizarre. I've been able to reconnect back up with some old friends...some through the wonderful world of Facebook :) and some just naturally. I'm quite grateful for friends in my life because they make my world so much brighter. For those friends who I'm not in constant contact with...I'm still thinking of you always.
We are all so connected in so many ways....more than our tiny, little human minds can fathom. Its those instances where you can recognize the connection that is pretty awesome. When you can be in the moment and really be aware that every one you come in contact with every day plays some role in your life...that is quite enlightening.
So, thank you to everyone who is in my life...or who was in my life...I'm grateful...for you have made me who I am. And, who I am, is... who I am.
Correva Nel Vento (1980) Streaming ITA Completo
4 years ago
5 comments:
Well said Jessica. So do ya want to get together???
Love it! My exact thoughts lately - to a T! Might have to bloglift this one! Ü
very well said girlie! Exactly what I have been thinking a lot about lately. You really just verbalized everything that has been swarming around my head recently. Thank you.
It's funny, because a friend of mine said kind of the same thing to me about 12 years ago. She said, "You know, people come and go out our lives for a reason. Most of them won't stay forever- and that's okay, it's all for a purpose." She said, "People have to learn to let them go."
It kind of upset me when she said that. She was a deep thinker, a writer and I really had never heard anything like that in all my life, but I've never forgotten it. It's very enlightening and freeing.
I think I told you about my very good friend who just stopped talking to me one day, and I had no idea why. Recently we've reconnected (5 years later) and I still carry those hurt feelings of "what happened??" I'm trying really hard not to let the past be in the present, and just know that for whatever reason we had to go our separate ways. It's hard though, especially when the years that she missed were some of the most important years of my life...I got married, had a baby, bought 2 houses, started my "grown up" life...and she missed it. It's hard not to be resentful. But I keep reminding myself of the things you just said in your post, and it makes it a little easier to go forward...without looking back! :)
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